The Gifts I didn’t accept.
Hello my dear child. I am so sorry for what I did to you. I had just had your older sister 3 months before and lost my mom (your grandma), who I know is taking great care of you in Heaven. I was so lost. I had started abusing pain medication to get high and I found out I was pregnant with you. I didn’t tell your Daddy at the time. His Mom your other grandma took me and paid for me to have you murdered! There is no excuse, reason or explanation that can justify what I did on that day. But I have to say I’m sorry. From the bottom of my heart! After that day I ended up getting pregnant with another one of your siblings, and once again did not tell yall’s Father. I was REALLY deep into my addition at that point. It was about 4 years after I killed you, that I murdered another human! About a year after that I got pregnant again with your brother Kaleb who is here with me, your sister and your Daddy. But when God had blessed me yet again with another baby I knew that I needed help. I ran to Jesus! I got the help I needed. Ivery been Sober for 3 years and 9 months today! And we have completely given our lives to God. So I know for sure that we will meet again. I love you both so much. I have also since told your Daddy about you guys. He loves you too! Xoxoxoxo