I am sorry. If only I knew….

Author: Anonymous
Baby Name: Nic
Birth Date: Jan 2017
Abortion Date: 21.05.2016

Dear baby Nic,
I am truely sorry for being so selfish, ignorant, unloving to have made that choice. I am regretting it everyday. For years, I have pretended I was ok, but I’m not. My biggest mistake was not being brave enough to carry you forward, not understanding how important you were to my future. I never felt alone in the past. I feel really alone now, there’s an emptiness that can’t be filled. Now you are with me in my spirit. I can imagine you cuddle into me at night, play with my hair, touch my skin like your sister does. I am sorry for my selfish and rush decision 4 yrs ago. It was the worst choice of my life. Please forgive me I took your life for selfish reasons. If I could turn back time, I would choose you over me, over and over again without doubt.