If I could turn back time

Author: My First Name
Baby Name: Angel
Birth Date: July 2020
Abortion Date: December 2019

I would be 13 weeks pregnant today . I would no doubt be showing and I would no doubt have friends and family who would be happy for me. Some would be sad for me and some would say that I was too young, but none of them ever would have said it to my face.

I am 19 years old and I am in college. What other option did I have? Abortion seemed like the easy way out.

I was awake during the procedure and I tried to stop the abortion just before it occurred, but the doctor looked at me and she told me that she had just started suctioning and she could not stop. I could feel no pain during the procedure, but my body knew the very instant that my baby was taken out of me. I wish she would have told me when she was about to start, I know I would have changed my mind. Her looking at me and telling me that she just started suctioning will be in my mind until the day I die.

I am sorry for what I did to my child. This is not easy for me at all. But I will try to do my best on having a better life and I will try to move on from this.
They say abortion is easy and they say abortion is just a normal procedure.

Well I can tell you I don’t believe that at all.

My baby’s due date would have been July 12th, 2020. I wish it still would have been.