My angel
Author: Ally Baby Name: Tyler
My small innocent bump
Which I killed from inside
This haunts me every night
It’s my fault that you died
The mistake I made
Makes me so damn mad
The pain of letting you go
Hurts me so bad
You didn’t deserve this
It wasent at all fair
I wish I could take my own life
And cuddle you up there
I look down at my belly
And wish it wasent true
The day I committed murder
The day I killed you
It makes me feel guilt
And like a sick person too
We didn’t even get to meet
Yet I love and miss you
You never got to see the life
That everyone else could
If I could take back that day
Trust me like, I would
I wouldn’t of taken those pills
I wouldent of let you go
I would of brought u into life
An watch you breath an grow
but I did let you go
And I did let you die
Every day I live in regret
Always askin myself ‘why’
Sometimes I here a baby cry
But I know it’s all in my head
This pain is just horrible,Would I be happier with you dead?
I know it’s hurting you baby
It’s hurting me aswell
But I’ll get what I deserve
I hope I rot in hell
I imagine holding you tight
Watching you grow up an play
Then knock back in reality
And those dreams fade away
I’ll never ever forgive myself
This pain I deserve maybe.
But for the rest of my life
I’ll know I’m the mother of a dead baby
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Aug 04, 2015 @ 13:34:24
Dear Ally,
I am so sorry to hear the amount of pain that you are in. My heart breaks that you had to make this decision. Thank you for sharing your story because some other girl out there may be struggling with the same deicision and this poem may touch them and send them seeking alternatives. I will be praying that you find peace and that you are able to find a way to help other girls that have found themselves in this same position. I don’t know if you believe in the Lord but I do and I know that he can bring peace into your life and redeem this decision. I pray that He takes this pain away from you and is able to provide you the peace that you need. Thank you for sharing this poem!
Aug 06, 2015 @ 11:44:57
Dear Ally,
Thank you for the courage to share your story about baby Tyler. Your healing process has begun via your expression of grief for your unborn child. I can understand your angst, because in June 1971, I had an abortion, which I later regretted. Perhaps it will help you to read my story called, Baby Rose in Heaven, which written and posted on this site in May 2014. I am now volunteering at a local pro-life pregnancy center and have been available to counsel other women to consider not making the same tragic sin against God that I did in 1971. Keeping you in my prayers for your spiritual healing and peace.