My Little Angel

Author: Anonymous
Baby Name: Nur Hana Qistina
Birth Date: 13 January 2019
Abortion Date: 7 June 2018

It’s been more than a year now but you go through my mind every single day without fail. To be really honest, I always imagine about your first birthday, your first word, your first step, every single magical moment about you. There are no memories of you left here, no trace of your presence either. I’ve missed you really bad, you were everything I’ve ever dreamed of my entire life but I had to give you up. That broke my heart and every hope I had in life. He didn’t care at all, he never does, but it’s okay. I’m here, little angel. I will never leave you alone. This world is too cruel for a delicate angel like you. Maybe this sounds crazy but I will always be waiting for you to come home even when I know you will never ever come back. I’m sorry for giving up on you without even trying, I hope you’d forgive me and perhaps one fine day, I would be able to forgive myself for what I did to you. I know you’re watching over me now and I’m going to be a person that you’re proud of. I’ll make you proud love, I promise. If only I could have had one chance to just hold you for the first and last time, I would give my whole existence away for that. I hope I get to see you in Heaven, maybe only then I could hold you close to me and tell you how this heart of mine is filled with you. Sleep well, my little angel. Nothing is going to hurt you again, not even me. I love you so much, to the moon and back, always.