I will never forget you
Author: Anonymous Baby Name: W.H.K Abortion Date: March 17, 2012
I named you W.H.K, after your Grandmother’s last name and my adopted Mother’s first name. When I found out I was pregnant with you I didn’t know what to think. I had a variety of emotions that left me aching and confused. I couldn’t provide you.
I was 22 years old and in a relationship with your father.Your father didn’t want you and tried to convince me that this was the ” right ” thing to do. Truth is , it wasn’t.
In the months leading up to the day I aborted you I thought about nothing and know one but you. I would shower and rub my hands up and down my tummy singing to you, thinking about you , wondering what you were going to turn out to be, look like,become. I only went through with it because your father convinced me it was somehow the right thing. I know in my heart though that it was not. I miss you and every time I think about what I did my heart aches for the could have beens.
I should have been strong, pulled through and listened to my heart.I wanted you. You, I always carry with me. I should of saved you, kept you and protected you. I was your mother , AM YOUR MOTHER. I can’t hate myself for it..Sometimes I believe I should but I know deep in my heart , you would not want Mommy to. Mommy was a young woman, barely in understanding of the strength she had in herself.I feel now at twenty five years old when you would have been three.
I would have known that. I miss you. I always will.