I was 4 weeks and 6 days pregnant when I got my abortion. I regret it, but I’m at peace the choice I made. I believe everything happens for a reason. I was attending college, running cross country. I had a good relationship with my boyfriend at the time even though we were 9 hours away. I found out on August 22nd that I was pregnant, I got my abortion on September 5th. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do. I was so depressed afterwards, my boyfriend was so supportive but I was so mean and cruel because I thought it was his fault when it wasn’t. I wanted to be an normal college student. Running in college, attending college and just make a good life for myself. I wasn’t ready for a baby, physically, mentally and emotionally. I made the choice too, because I wasn’t ready. After I did it, I was so depressed to the point where I didn’t want to live anymore. My boyfriend left me, I was doing terrible, I was sick for weeks. Finally, I realized I made a choice and I had to live up to it. to this day, I am in school; I am still running, and working. Sometimes I have my thoughts on what would’ve been. I’ve come to terms and to the point where I am at peace with the choice I made. In Native American ways, My grandma went to ceremony, and prayed for me. She said my baby is with my grandpa (in heaven) and my grandpa is watching her. She left because she wanted a good life for her momma and daddy”. It makes me happy inside because my baby girl is with my grandpa and is safe. I will see her sometime, someday. I know she’s ok, and she is watching over me. I am continuing to strive for education and success. I miss you and love you my baby girl. Momma angel.