My baby boy or girl would’ve been 7 this year

Author: Chasity
Baby Name: "angel"
Birth Date: n/a
Abortion Date: April 2007

Well when I was 19 I was talked into getting an abortion after I left my husband, I contemplated not going through with it and just not telling him about it, then I thought about what that would do to that child…

Well, I went back and forth with myself til it was the very last week I had to have a yes or no at hand… So I went through with it, and I have never in my life regretted doing something so much, it took me years to finally forgive myself, I asked GOD for forgiveness right off the bat, but it took me literally til this past year to do the forgiving of myself…

Reason being, is that I couldn’t believe I had just ended the life of an innocent child granted after I found out that my ex husband was a child molester and I didn’t want that child to suffer because I refused to go back to that situation… But what made matters worse was the fact that I saw my child’s body being carried on a little tray out of the room, like they couldn’t cover that up, so it left a mental scar as well as emotional one…

My baby boy or girl just laid there lifeless, I was told by a very good friend, well one of my best friends to have regret, but don’t live in regret… Very wise words and he made me forgive myself right then and there and of course I halfheartedly did, but late that night I figured there’s nothing I can do about the past, I just know that the child I once carried for 4 short months is now in Heaven with our Father, I’m so sorry, I would’ve loved to have been a good mommy to you sweetheart, and for you to meet your sister and brother, and I guess your little sister and brother.

I love you honey, and hope to meet you someday! Please forgive me…