i miss you and will forever love you
Author: Sandra Baby Name: Taylor Birth Date: July 4 Abortion Date: January 13
There hasn’t been a day that I haven’t thought of you . Having an abortion has been the worst mistake I’ve ever done. You run through my mind constantly. I know ill never get to kiss you when your hurt, hug you when you are sad, or tell you I love you every single day. This has been the most toughest months not having you here. When I first found out about you I did get scared but I also had a moment of excitement too I never knew I could love someone so much with out even seeing them. I was so scared to tell anyone. My family has never really been there for me and I knew they defiantly wouldn’t be there for this so I would have to do this on my own. As for daddy we had just gone back together but I had a really hard and difficult relationship with him. Everything would be great and smiles then in just a second it could all change. The little time I had you hoped to god that you didn’t feel the pain I was in, the tears that would run down my cheeks, or the fear that I had. I hoped that you would just feel the good days. The day I decided to have an abortion was so hard I was already 15 weeks I called and made my appt I cried for hours after that. I went in to my procedure and I wanted to yell stop I don’t want to do this but I knew it was already to late. It was the worst feeling ever to know how I could love you that much and do something to harm you. I have never forgiven myself and not sure if I ever could. You made a mark on my heart and I will forever love you.
XO Mom
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Jun 10, 2015 @ 20:20:08
Sandra,
I am so sorry you are going through this pain and loss. I can’t imagine… But God knows. He knows. And He forgives.
If you don’t already have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ, who went to the cross for the sins of the ENTIRE world, then I pray that you will ask Him into your heart right this very moment. He will meet you wherever you are sweet girl.
Please let me know if you’d like to talk.
Wendi
Jul 02, 2015 @ 21:48:03
Wendi
I want to thank you so much for this comment . Its been really hard going through this pain. I have read this comment several times and has lets me open up more to god. I have asked for forgiveness and iv felt just a big weight lifted off my chest . The experience that I had a little person for that little moment of time is something I will never forget and it was such an amazing moment and painful time .Since then I promised myself that I would change my life for the better and that’s exactly what I have done .
Thank you so much
Sandra