In my heart
I’m sorry that you had to pay the ultimate price for my mistakes, my immaturity, my deception, my guilt, my fear, my inability to change my ways and think of someone other than myself. I struggle with the guilt everyday. Sometimes it consumes me, but I cannot let it as I know you’d be worse off coming into the world with me as your mother in the state I was. Your brothers and sisters to come will be in a much better position to be loved and cared for unselfishly when I hopefully bring them into the world. I’m sorry, I miss you everyday, I will love you always. I hope you’re in heaven and can forgive me one day.