My precious child
Author: Anonymous Birth Date: August 1978 Abortion Date: January 1978
January 6, 1978 I call it the day of death. I was young and scared. I told your father and he said “what do you want me to do?” I said “nothing I just wanted you to know”. We didn’t speak again for 10 years and that was a brief moment of him saying “I’m sorry”. I wish I knew then what I know now. I wish I would have been courageous and had you. I wanted you I was just so full of fear. Something died inside of me that day. Of all my regrets in life not having you is my greatest regret. I murdered my own child. I am so sorry. Please forgive me. I will never forgive myself. I remember every moment of that day. I love you. I wish I would have died instead of you.
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Jul 03, 2015 @ 15:30:08
I walked in your shoes 5 years earlier. I shared the same regrets and didn’t think I could forgive myself, either. I realize now we were young and not thinking with maturity at the time. I don’t think I realized the impact it would have on the rest of my life. It was only when I asked for, and received forgiveness from the only one who mattered – God – that I was able to really live again. May I suggest you find someone to talk to, or a support group, so you can be free of the guilt. I have tried to live each day with appreciation of the children and grandchildren God has blessed me with since that time. Please seek help to forgive yourself and really live. I will pray for life for you.