my sweet angel blake

Author: Anonymous
Baby Name: Blake Hope
Birth Date: May 7, 2017
Abortion Date: September 12, 2017

it was august i was 15 years old, i didn’t think much of it. i finally realized i hadn’t got my period in two months. i thought maybe i’ll take a pregnancy test. my boyfriend at the time and i went to walmart bought a test, and instead of going home i thought why not take it here. i went into the girls bathroom as he wait outside sitting on the bench. we agreed we would text to let each other know what was happening. i unwrap the packaging and begin to pee on the test, apparently you’re supposed to wait around 3 minutes to get the results. well i set it down. look at my phone telling him i took it. i look over at the test. and it read. “pregnant” i instantly cried. for so long i’ve wanted to be a mother but i was so young. i still am. september 12,2017 is a day i will never forget. my baby only 7 weeks old would never get to see the light of day. the worst part of it all was when i did find out i was pregnant i didn’t have one thought on keeping blake. from start to finish i knew i needed to get an abortion. for the rest of my life i will regret the decision i made. 17 months. and i miss you more than i’ve ever missed anything in my whole life. you are my sunshine. my reason to keep going. you made me a momma and i don’t care what anyone else says. i wish i cherished the short time we had together. but i do now. i have a box for you with outfits and notes i write to you. and even a few pictures of your daddy and i. i want you to know that i love you. more than anything. and you forever will be the greatest gift i’ve ever received. you are my magic in the mess. and i’m so sorry that i couldn’t be the mother you needed blake. but i will spend the rest of my life trying to make it up to you. i’m trying to make you proud. my sweet angel i cannot wait to finally meet you. we will be together soon i promise. love your mommy❤️