36 years have not lessened the regret
To my unborn baby,
12 weeks seems like such a short time, but not for you. By then your brain was beginning to work, your heart was beating, you were being skillfully knit together in my womb. I was a very troubled young woman, who had a history of sexual abuse. I told myself that it didn’t matter. I told myself that I had no choice. I listened to the lies. I was not brave, I was a coward. I have never forgotten you, and I never will. 36 years later I still sometimes cry, my heart is filled with sadness about the choice I made so long ago to end your life.
Feb 14, 2017 @ 08:42:56
My baby was removed from my womb at 12 weeks as well. That was 24 years ago for me. I had just turned 19 and already had an 8 month baby girl that I was struggling to provide for. My husband was a drug addict and alcoholic who barely kept a job. At the time, I thought the choice I made was the right one, but I know I was wrong. I still remember walking into that clinic with people screaming at me and showing me pictures of aborted fetuses. I ignored them and was determined to get it done. As that life was removed from me, I remember feeling such an enormous amount of regret. I made that choice to make life easier for me. I was taking a life just so mine could be easier. Although I have since been blessed with two more children, both boys, I still regret the choice I made to abort my second child. The only comfort I have is knowing that one day when I die, I will see my child again. I will finally get to know if they were a boy or a girl and what they look like. I share your pain Laura. I wish other young women would consider the bigger picture before making a decision such as this.