Married with two beautiful girls, and it was three years after my second child was born when we were pregnant again. The pregnancy was unplanned but not unwanted, but the pregnancy came during the craziness of the pandemic. I was unemployed and taking care of my girls at home, my husband was barely working with(…)
It seemed like the right thing to do. It seemed like the option was for the best. But what I didn’t know was that the choice would haunt me months later. I wish I gave it more thought. I gave you up but I died with you that day. I didn’t know that I would(…)
Happy 5th Birthday AJ! I love you more than words can say. I so want to be in heaven with you today, celebrating your 5th birthday!!!!! You’re a little girl now, and growing so fast! I hate that I’m missing that, but I’m trusting that God the Father will catch me up to speed when(…)
This is a recorded song Listen at ” A Memorial to Zephyr,.Beverly Rush, Spotify.” For parents Zephyr you’re the gentle wind The silent breeze in my life Zephy though a gentle wind Your brought a storm in.my life When you blew into.my life My body felt so strange If I could change one thing in(…)
My birth mother was raped and she found out that she was pregnant-she wanted to have an abortion but could find anyone to do this. She tried to commit suicide but God saved her life and mine- I was introduced to my adopted parents at 5 days old. If I had been aborted I would(…)
I am so sorry that I didn’t give birth to you. I dreamed with you that you were a beautiful girl with curly hair and i tried to save you but didn’t managed to. I am so sorry, and i hope that God will forgive me. I love you my darling and i would do(…)
I had been a Christian for several years, but did not understand what it would be like to have a visitation from the holy spirit many years after an abortion. I was all alone at home. And I lit a candle and sat down and began to have a conversation with who would have been(…)
If only I could go back and change that fateful decision. If only I knew we would’ve been ok, and God would take care of us… if only I could have held you in my arms , kissed your precious face, So many times I’ve wanted to tell you how much I love you, grieved(…)
28 years ago!! I remember being in hospital. Waiting to hear that it was done!! I’m so sorry – it just wasn’t your time!! I wasn’t ready for you!! You wouldn’t have had the best life, I could barely support myself! I had no option but to make the decision to end your life early(…)
My heart aches everytime I think of you. I love you so much my beautiful boy, I will never forgive myself. I know your dad loves you too. I will never forget or stop wondering what could have been. My heart is yours, I will always love you.
I found out I was pregnate very early, I carried you for almost 12 weeks. Im so sorry… you deserve so much better.
You were made out of love. We didnt know your gender, but I knew you were a boy. Mommys boy. My beautiful, sweet baby boy Theo. Im so sorry we couldnt keep you. Dont you doubt for a second that mommy and daddy didnt love you. Our angel. We will never forgive ourselves. We will(…)
No words will ever express how sorry I am. I almost died this year and I now have a profound appreciation for the gift of life. I denied you that gift and I am forever sorry and broken. You would have been a blessing and loved like no other child before. I was scared and(…)
I wish you were here, It’s my fault and I am so sorry. If I knew how to deal with everything better then you could have been here. I didn’t know what to do and in the end pushed your mother away. We didn’t know your gender but we had a feeling you were a(…)
I am so ashamed and sorry and disappointed in myself as a mother that I aborted you almost three decades ago. At that time I felt I had no choice. I was in debt and started living with a man who wanted me to abort you as soon as he found out I was pregnant.(…)