A lost part of me too

Author: Kimberly
Baby Name: Emery Lemley
Birth Date: March 2016
Abortion Date: August, 13, 2015

There is never really words to justify the decision I made. There isn’t a day when I don’t think about you, it’s like there was something that died in my soul the day you died. I just stopped believing in anything. I loved you the second I realized you were growing inside me, I loved that at eight weeks you were already making me sick, I loved that you needed me as much as I needed you. I’m so sorry it came to the decision it did. I wish I would have chosen you over a man who never wanted you! I was to nieve to know any better at the time and I wish I could rewind time and take it all back. I’m so sorry! Please forgive me! I want you to know that I tried so hard to keep mommy and daddy together and I’m sure it breaks your little heart to see what we’ve become and for that I wish I could say something that would make any of how we treated one another justifiable after your death but we are just both so hurt and lost in all of this. I need you to know that I’m imperfect and I have so many flaws but I’m all of that I would have been perfect for you, you made me feel like life was worth living, you gave me hope. I’m forging in today because I need you to watch me become a better version of myself. I need to say a prayer at night and not feel how sad you are with me. I’m going to be so much better, I need to watch me and believe me when I say I won’t let your death be in vain. I love you more then life itself! It’s this indescribable, undying kind of love that I’ll never let go of. My sweet angel, my sweet baby Emery Lemley.