I ache for you
Author: Shannon Baby Name: Michaela Birth Date: November 1993 Abortion Date: April 1993
My precious little one, I don’t feel worthy of your forgiveness. I have been grieving you for 21 years now. I often wonder how your life would have turned out. I ache to hold you in my arms, to have a relationship with you, to know your heart. I am so sorry that I sacrificed your life for my convenience. I was scared, broken, damaged. I should have given you a chance, I should have given our family a chance. I doubted myself, I doubted God. I did something I said I would never do. Please forgive me. I hope that I get to hold you one day in Heaven.
Jan 05, 2015 @ 07:06:06
God bless you. I also terminated a child. Keep praying and ask your daughter to pray for your healing. She will.
Jan 06, 2015 @ 22:18:25
I too aborted a child. It took many years and the Lord’s help, but I finally forgave myself because He forgave me first. I believe that you too will know that forgiveness.
Jan 05, 2015 @ 07:09:57
You are very brave and very strong. I know you will see Michaela one day and I thank you for sharing your note to her.
Jan 05, 2015 @ 07:25:17
Know His love and mercies have no limit. There is no sin or wrong doing greater than His forgiveness. Christ died on the cross for that moment… So that you and your precious baby will be holding each other one day in paradise.
Augustine Uhegbu Lifecouch
Jan 05, 2015 @ 07:29:24
Praying for Shannon and all the women
that believed the lies of the enemy of
life! She is so loved by her Heavenly
Father. I pray she finds comfort in the
salvation He offers and that other women
do as well
Jan 05, 2015 @ 07:35:44
Shannon, thank you for sharing your story! I’m sure Michaela is watching you (and loving you) from heaven 🙂 I know she understands it was a hard time for you. I send a big hug from the UK!!
Jan 05, 2015 @ 07:36:13
God bless you my dear.
Jan 05, 2015 @ 07:40:01
The Lord forgives and heals and he sees you repent and turn. May the good Lord give you comfort when you most need it and the knowledge that he is keeping Michaela in his arms safe until you see her one day.
Jan 05, 2015 @ 07:40:22
Shannon you will see her again and hold her close to your heart. Jesus has forgiven you and washed clean so don’t dwell on the past is over but focus on what is and what will be. Walk with Jesus and let Him take your pain my dear sister in Christ. I know your pain but not from an abortion my daughter died from SIDS (Sudden Infant Death Syndrome) when she was 2 months 21 days old. I blamed myself, and I blamed God. I dealt with so much pain for so many years until I gave my pain to Jesus and God forgave me for my anger. He knew it was misguided. You are a wonderful daughter of Christ and He wants you to be happy and not feel this pain so give it to Him. Then walk in the fullness of knowing how much He loves you. Michaela is waiting with our Lord for you to come home to them someday. Love in Christ, Janet
Jan 05, 2015 @ 07:58:07
May you be blessed and find peace knowing you are loved if you have given your heart to Jesus Christ and you will be forever reconciled to your child one day and get to spend forever together with your precious child who loves and adores you and longs to hold you too!
Jan 05, 2015 @ 08:02:16
My heart breaks with every abortion. It is love lost forever. It also has affected me. I would have had one grandchild and one nephew/niece had it not been for this awful procedure. I can feel your pain, but I’m sure not as much as you have suffered. The Catholic church has a program called Project Rachael that helps to heal the pain of those who have had an abortion. I’m sure the program is available where your are. I would suggest that you contact them. I pray that this evil law is soon repealed. God loves you and wants you to get through your pain. Pray and He forgives.
Jan 05, 2015 @ 08:06:36
God will forgive you by the blood of Yahshua, His son when you ask His forgiveness and accept Him as your Savior. He will cast our sins as far as the east is from the west. Trust in His forgiveness, my friend. HE will set you free!- Psalms 103
Jan 05, 2015 @ 08:14:49
Shannon, my heart aches for you. I wish there were magic words to erase the pain and grief. I pray that you can find peace and forgiveness for yourself. You know that God has forgiven you, and your precious baby is safe among the angels. Please take some comfort in these thoughts. Sending love and prayers.
Jan 05, 2015 @ 08:18:08
In life, we often make decisions out of fear instead of trusting in The Lord. Jesus can to forgive our sins. Pray to him for healing and forgiveness. This is also an opportunity for you to STAND FOR LIFE now and help others to make a decision to choose Life not death. May you have the strength and courage to speak for Life and save others
Jan 05, 2015 @ 08:22:02
i lost my little girl, Beckie, on May 23,2000. She was eight years old, and would be 23 this year. Although I do not know the pain of abortion, I do know the pain of a lost child. Beckie was adopted when she was a week old, and if her birth mother had known she was pregnant she would have aborted her and I never would have known the joy of having her and being her mommy for eight years. You’ll hold your little one someday and I’ll hold mine as well. They are together with the Lord in Heaven.
Jan 05, 2015 @ 08:27:59
God has forgiven you, now forgive yourself. Michaela has been in heaven, and is a special part of God’s plan. We don’t understand much of that plan. The best way to honor Michaela, is to live a good life, praise God, and know you will reunite in heaven. Love and blessings to you. Elaine
Jan 05, 2015 @ 08:45:37
Accept God’s forgiveness,forgive yourself,and look forward to the day when you will meet her.
Jan 05, 2015 @ 09:20:59
God’s mercy endures forever; glory be to God!
Jan 05, 2015 @ 09:26:20
If you have received Jesus as your Lord and Savior, Shannon you will for sure be reunited with your precious baby. Jesus paid the price for all our sins and He knows your are sorry for what you did. You are forgiven. Your precious baby will be waiting for you. This is real. Heaven is real. Love you Shannon. God bless you.
Jan 05, 2015 @ 09:28:03
Your daughter is in heaven already, interceding for you, her mother. She had already forgave you and loves you more than you can imagine. Now is your turn to forgive yourself and with the love of God and your daughter keep the faith and the strength to go on. My prayers will be with you forever.
Jan 05, 2015 @ 09:35:21
Gungor “Beautiful Things”: http://youtu.be/oyPBtExE4W0
I want to share this song with you. We are new creations in Christ Jesus he is enough and he is making us new. All the old is gone and put on the new. Sing to praises of thanksgiving and we are made right in him…just as we had never sinned. We are righteous through his blood shed for us. Now go in peace and wait for the power that Jesus will send you it is the Holy Spirit. He will teach you all things and you will do greater things because of him. Amen!
Jan 05, 2015 @ 09:40:17
I believe with all my heart you’ll be able to hold your precious baby girl in heaven. She’s in heaven waiting, hoping you’ll give your heart to Jesus, so that when your life on earth is complete, you can be together forever. God bless you.
Jan 05, 2015 @ 09:49:47
Our God is loving and forgiving. Honor your baby girl by talking to others and spreading the word of God. Tell your story. Become a pro life advocate. Even if you change one person you have succeeded. God Bless you!! I will be praying for peace for you.
Jan 05, 2015 @ 10:02:03
Hello, Sorry for your loss through the abortion procedure. I understand you were scared and confused and felt alone. The enemy is the one who gave you the thought to abort this child , by telling you lies …like I can’t do this, or whatever came in your thoughts that day. But, know this you made the wrong decision, wrong choice and I know you have been hurting for years and with regret for what you’ve done. Michaela, is in heaven with our father and Lord Jesus. Through the Lord you can be completely healed by praying for forgiveness and giving your very soul and heart and life to Jesus who died for us and rose 3 days later!!! Salvation is a free gift and on your knees ye shall pray to our father and know you are a sinner, and have fallen short of the glory of God. We all deserve to go to he’ll but, whosoever believes in him and confesses your sins, ye shall be forgiven of. Once you give your life over to Jesus, ye shall be saved and then ask him to comfort and heal you from this loss of your child and the Lord will and has heard your cry for 21 years and if you ask with a sincere heart he will see you through and completely heal you but, your little angel will be always in your heart! ! Ask and ye shall receive. I pray Lord you help this sister of mine and save her soul and heal her from this loss of a child. It was your plan and you know why!!
Jan 05, 2015 @ 10:21:38
You broke my heart with your words. Find comfort in knowing that in heaven, all is peace and love. Your little one holds no bitterness towards you, because anything but love would be a foreign sentiment. Ask God to forgive your wrong, and then seek healing. Your baby cannot forgive you enough or love you enough, if you will not forgive yourself. Please, find a post-abortion recovery group. Find peace. I’ll be praying for you!
Jan 05, 2015 @ 10:29:08
God forgives you. Now forgive yourself.
Jan 05, 2015 @ 10:34:53
God has already forgiven you and so has your child. Now you must forgive yourself and help others in need whenever you have a chance. God allowed this to happen for your good. We learn from our mistakes. God is a loving God.
Jan 05, 2015 @ 10:36:27
In her memory,do what you can to save other babies.This is a wonderful way for her short life to mean something,and a great way to honor her.God forgives.So honor her memory by accepting His forgiveness and saving other babies.
Jan 05, 2015 @ 10:37:33
The grief will never really go away. But, we have hope in God through his Son, Jesus Christ, that we will hold our children, someday.
They know we miss them and that we’re sorry for what we’ve done, and they pray for us.
Let’s pray for each other, especially the women who do not yet know that what they’ve done is wrong, and for the women who are still believing the lie that they have a right to do this terrible thing. They don’t know yet that it will haunt them.
Maybe when we tell our stories, some poor woman will understand, and choose to escape the pain that abortion has brought us.
And let’s offer our sufferings on their behalf, interceding for them as our Lord does for us; “Father, forgive them, they know not what they do.” The peace of Christ be with you.
Jan 05, 2015 @ 12:02:17
You can know healing from this loss and be assured you will see your little girl, in heaven some day. The Father wants you to know His Love, Forgiveness and Healing…
re a book by Life Cycle Books entitled ” No One Told me I could Cry ” by Connie Nykiel…..in it, I wrote alittle of my story, as I have 4 children in Heaven
Blessings and prayers,
Jan 05, 2015 @ 12:38:18
I want you to be at peace over your mistakes, all of us have done things we would like to go back and undo. The Lord is not holding this against you any longer your sins are under His Blood and your little one is Praising the Lord and waiting on you she is very much alive in the arms of Jesus and in His presence and did you know you can name your little one now. Lift your head up high and Praise the Lord for His peace and love and grace on your life and stop beating yourself up that’s what the devil wants you to do but the Lord is saying that you are free and loved and He has great plans for you so be glad in the Lord and you are His little girl you are His child and that makes you a Kings kid what a wonderful name to have , May the Lord give you peace joy and hope and faith and courage to go on and live for the Lord and know that you have more blessing on the way Many blessings to you my sister and I pray this has helped you , In Jesus Name I pray for you
Jan 05, 2015 @ 12:42:17
Shannon, I am with you. I have grieved for 25 years my baby would have just celebrated his 25th birthday. We will see them someday I pray. We must end the scourge of abortion which destroys lives, families and our world. GOD forgive me. I will pray for you. -Dan
Jan 05, 2015 @ 14:25:13
l sinned and come short of the glory of God, thank God for His Holy Spirit, the Comforter and for the Lord Jesus sitting at the right hand of the Father in heaven.The Lord is faithful and you have repented, He has forgiven you, Satan is the accuser, don’t let him rob you anymore of your peace and joy. Your beautiful daughter is in heaven basking in God’s presence, now is your time to enjoy his presence by turning your sadness into joy, get involved with pro-life groups and share your story with those that are contemplating having an abortion. May the peace of God that passes all understanding quicken your heart and mind through Christ Jesus, He is the Prince of Peace!
Jan 05, 2015 @ 14:45:34
I send hugs and love to you.Your baby is in the best,safest place she could be.She is where I want all my children to be.Rejoice in that,and allow yourself to live a life dedicated to the GOD she now lives with.
Jan 05, 2015 @ 17:29:56
Shannon, I’m sorry you had to go thru that. I’ll pray for you and your child. But know this, God loves you and he wants to heal you. We love you, Phenyo.
Jan 05, 2015 @ 17:49:07
I am so sorry for your broken heart,but I want you and all who have aborted or lost a baby any other way,your babies are with God.They are waiting to meet and love you.This year I had two granddaughters lose a baby from a miscarages.I thought my heart would break both times,but God reminded me that he receives every baby that dies and they are with him that second.I am looking for word to seeing my babs when I get to heaven.God promises us if we ask him to be our lord and Savior we would see our loved ones again.So we can all take a time to grieve and God lets us move on and make a difference in the world.I have worked with so many girls and women who have suffered from this.I tell them to take their forgiveness from God and help other women in their grief that can be taken away too.My mom told me she would have aborted me ,but didn’t because it was against the law.so I am seein this from the babys point ov view they forgive and love you
Jan 05, 2015 @ 19:05:28
I am so sorry for your loss. I have no other words to comfort you, but I will tell you this, if you pray to God for forgiveness, He will forgive you. He forgives us of all sins. Over and over again. May God bless you and help you to cope with this and to not dwell on it. The hardest person to forgive, is ourselves.
Jan 05, 2015 @ 20:29:05
Dear Shannon,, God is a God of forgiveness. Your child is with Him now and is safe. I pray that you will experience the loving forgiveness, grace & mercy of our Lord, and that one day you will hold your baby in your arms, in heaven. Until that time I pray for peace in your heart. God loves you.
Jan 05, 2015 @ 21:05:03
Dear Shannon, your tender words deeply touch my heart, as they clearly have for many others. I lost my only child to abortion 31 years ago. I never knew I could be forgiven until God chose to bless me with a miracle and allowed me to see a vision of my sweet daughter in Heaven, a story I now share publicly, by God’s grace. Online for Life’s President, Brian Fisher, graciously wrote the powerful Foreword message to my book “Worthy of Love: A Journey of Jope and Healing After a Abortion” which I would be honored to send to you as a personal gift. If you prefer a preview first, you can upload the first chapter directly at http://www.shadiahrichi.com. Bless you, dear sister. God knows your every tear and will use them to minister to others, as you are already doing.
Jan 05, 2015 @ 21:36:51
your letter to your daughter broke my heart. Ive never aborted a pregnancy but I have miscarried twice. I believe your daughter is loving her mommy from heaven and you will one day hold her. Forgive yourself, honor your baby girl by speaking out against abortion. I admire your strength.
Jan 05, 2015 @ 21:38:32
Shannon, you are loved. God loves you and an entire community of people love you. Have faith. Your precious Michaela is in the arms of the perfect and loving God. I truly believe you can see her someday. Until that day comes, I pray the Lord would grant you peace and a joy in the face of mourning.
In Christ, there is forgiveness always. He can bring good out of every situation. Go now and be who God created you to be!
Jan 05, 2015 @ 23:24:57
sweetheart, if you have repented… God forgave a long time ago. YOU WILL HOLD YOUR BABY .. We ALL HAVE SINNED. … I saw a story of a lady who stopped breathing and came back to life on earth … While not breathing, she held her twin boys and watched them play! .. JESUS is taking great care of your baby. He lives! He loves all of us sinners. I love you too. Be blessed. Live strong!!!
Jan 06, 2015 @ 02:27:35
Shannon, you’re in a challenging season, but I declare you will come out of this situation stronger and wiser for God is with you! Believe this… If you have asked God to forgive you of your sin it is now as far as the east is from the west and God promises to “NEVER” bring up the issue again to hurt you! We who have made this deadly mistake understand your pain well. However millions have decided our children death though by our hand “WILL NOT BE IN VAIN.” We choose to allow what the devil meant for our demise be used to bring God Glory and the saving of many! So be encouraged my sister God is not finished with you nor with your daughters story… for beneath lies God’s Glorious beauty of redemption and complete restoration. If you’ve not considered participating in a “Post – Abortion Recovery Bible Study” I’d encourage you as many before me have, God will meet you there. Shannon, don’t waste another day wondering if Michaela will forgive you, move forward to the next step. You’ve already began your healing journey in sharing your beautiful heart to the world. Know this my sister, your daughter forgave you the day she went to Heaven and has been talking with God about your healing, and how together you’ll intercede for other souls in danger both in the womb as well as their Moms and dads . Shannon, Michaela, is growing up in heaven as my children have. You must make your life count. You must make your daughter proud. You must trust God whom she enjoys every second of this side of eternity! I believe right this moment my children are with your daughter praying for us all. For though we may have made a grave mistake God still loves us and has an AWESOME plan for our lives if we will allow Him to work. We love you Shannon, and though we may never meet one other on this side, one great day every woman who has walked this tedious journey will stand before our God with our children and thank God for His amazing grace and abundance of compassion. That is if we allow God to accomplish His perfect work within us…. the choice is ours. GOD say’s “CHOOSE LIFE”!!
Jan 06, 2015 @ 07:15:09
Try a Book I have called Abortions Aftermath by
Bill and Sue Banks its an older book it 1982 may help you start the healing process
Our Prayers are with you
Jan 06, 2015 @ 09:35:17
I almost aborted my child 12 years ago, just because his father had all of a sudden decided that unprotected sex had been a mistake and it wasnt the right time for a baby. Even though I didn’t go through with it, I have a lot of guilt over it, and over other things. Although hes here with me, I often have guilt over the fact that I chose to have a child with such a broken person. His father only recently attempted contact with our son, and he has had a substance abuse problem for a long time. I also have guilt over the fact that I didnt make more of myself before bringing him into this world. I had less than a high school education when I got pregnant, and no job. Things have improved for us, but I tell you this because I would like you to know that there are often no easy choices. Everything in life is a risk, or most of it, if you ask me. The choice you made will shape you and define you, because it was life altering. But only you get to decide if it will be a change for the better. God knows your heart, rest assure. He will make your soul complete, if you let him. He will show you that this isnt the end of the journey, and that your pain has a purpose. Thats what he has done with me.
Jan 06, 2015 @ 09:36:22
The Lord loves you unconditionally. If you continue to walk the narrow path in submission to God he’ll let you hold your baby.
Jan 06, 2015 @ 09:40:42
Sweet woman, you are forgiven. The Lord Jesus Christ died for all the sins of the world and all those who ask Him into their hearts as Lord and Savior will have eternal life and be forgiven for all their sins. Though our “righteous acts” are as filthy rags in and of ourselves, when Jesus is our Lord and Savior, God no longer sees us as the sinners we are, but sees us through the lens of Christ’s righteousness. Nothing we could ever do could separate us from His love once we are His and there is nothing too horrible that we have done that He won’t forgive if we humble ourselves and ask for forgiveness. Your baby is in heaven with Him and you can hold each other one day. There is hope, and the name of hope is Jesus Christ. God bless you, dear one!
Jan 06, 2015 @ 11:46:25
It took a lot of courage to open up and share your feelings and thoughts. You are perhaps the hardest judge on yourself. Let that go, because as soon as you ask God for forgiveness, it’s granted. We deal with the loss over time, but know that God’s given you new hope and a new purpose. He loves you. Now, love yourself enough to move forward with this new beginning. She’ll be waiting for you in heaven when you get there some day.
Jan 06, 2015 @ 12:01:25
She will be there with open arms and so will our Heavenly Father. Hugs to you.
Jan 06, 2015 @ 12:08:56
She has already forgiven you, as has our Creator. Forgive yourself and receive the love that is flowing to you. Please consider reading this book, which will comfort your heart: “Our Children Forever: George Anderson’s Message From Children on the Other Side.” Even our children who have crossed over through miscarriage, stillbirth, and abortion are still with us, loving us and growing with us as family throughout our lives. You will be reunited. I pray upon you a blessing of peace. ~ Life Lines for Love
Jan 06, 2015 @ 16:59:16
I lost a baby at the 5th month of gestation. It took 10 years for me to get passed it…but never over it. Then I lost my daughter at the age of 23. It took me 8 years to get through it but never over it. I wrote a book about communication with them on the other side…look it up on Amazon ….I’ll be the Brightest Star…it has helped so many…read the reviews…I wrote it with all mothers in mind. I know exactly what you are going through and my heart breaks for you.
Jan 06, 2015 @ 18:34:46
I cannot know the depth of pain you feel.
However, I do know that Jesus forgives all sin (no matter the big). To Him all sin is equal. He died on the cross as a sacrifice for your forgiveness for your sins and mine. He loves you and wants you to know that. Your baby is with Him. There is no better place to live than Heaven. Please ask for forgiveness. Place your heartache in his hands. They are big hands and they are there to hold you and let you know you are loved by him and by your baby. He is there to forgive you and to teach you to forgive yourself.
Jan 06, 2015 @ 19:36:46
My sister in Christ, blessings and comfort to you, look to Jesus for it is HE who is the author and finisher of your faith, allow the Holy Spirit to comfort your heart and allow yourself to feel our father’s forgiveness, only he can give you the comfort you need…
Jan 06, 2015 @ 22:23:11
i too have cried these tears, search for the name that has been given thru the grace of forgiveness to your child.. then plant a garden entitled the same. tend to the garden, invite the birds and butterflies to dance,, light candles and blow kisses in the breeze.. love is on the wind , always..
Jan 07, 2015 @ 17:47:03
Shannon sweetheart your words break my heart. I to had to make the decision to abort a child. My story differs from yours only in fact that I was 18, married & already had a son. I never told my husband at the time that I was pregnant because he was very abusive & would made keep the child & bring yet another child into a abusive home. I instead went to my mother & God, together it was clearly obvious what I had to do. I too live with this pain, but as I said, God has helped me through these last 29 yrs & I know he forgives me & that my child knows why I chose to send him/her to heaven with God instead of the alternative choice. My point here is Shannon that we both had a painful decision to make for the best interest of our children & God is a forgiving God, he has spoken to our children and told them that our decision was not made due to lack of love, but for all the love that we had in hearts for them. God bless you always
Jan 09, 2015 @ 09:40:03
I too many many years ago had a abortion, I have never forgotten or got over the pain I still feel today. I know the lord has forgiven me but it has always ways weigh heavily on my heart.
When I was married and ready to have children I found out that I could not because I had a wall in my uterus caused by a drug my mother took back in the 50’s that was supposed to help women with high risk pregnancy….
I would have never carried baby to term….
I always felt this was gods punishment.
Jan 09, 2015 @ 21:47:51
Dear Shannon, there is no grief greater than the loss of a child. Most people grieve for the child but I have seen the immeasurable grief, depression, guilt and regret that a mother suffers as a result. I wish I had answers, I wish I had a better way to help people in that situation, before, during and after. I have a son, he is 21 now. When I was pregnant I was young, alone and scared to death. I wasn’t sure what I was going to do. I understand exactly how you felt when you were pregnant. The panic, desperation, disbelief. It’s an awful, lonely place to be. As women we alone have to make some hard choices, choices we alone have to live with, choices that haunt us forever. And so we do the best we can at the time. I have a few friends that have gone thru the same thing and through them have learned a great deal of compassion for any woman that has gone thru this. My heart aches for you. I hope you can find a way to forgive yourself and live in peace, know that your child is loved and safe.
Take care, sincerely
Jan 19, 2015 @ 15:22:32
Thank you all of your words of encouragement, love and prayers. Your notes have meant so much to me and have touched my heart deeply.
I’ve recently worked with a local post abortion recovery group and now have been asked to co-lead a recovery group at church. You all of shown me such a wonderful way to love and care for the hurting. I pray that I am able to encourage others as I have been encouraged.
Feb 12, 2015 @ 11:47:35
Shannon, your Michaela is secure in the hands of God – God who loves *you* deeply. I hope you find the joy of living life to the full in Christ, knowing that when God gives his forgiveness, it’s complete and a gift that he will not take back.