I’m so sorry.. I’m so sorry I let everyone get to me. My parents weren’t supportive, I felt alone after awhile, I wanted to have you more then ever. I did. I think about you everyday my angel. I was scared sitting in the room and seeing people be so calm, I almost walked out plenty of times. But people got to me, right when I woke up from the anesthesia and got to the car I couldn’t help but to break down and cry.. I couldn’t stop. No one understood how hurt I was and how mad at myself I was. I love you… and always will my sweet angel. Not a day goes by that I wish I didn’t just stick it out and have you.. i love you..
Sep 10, 2017 @ 04:49:12
I understand how hurt and mad you must have been. I think a lot more women feel the same way, but try to be strong and brave because everyone acts like it’s nbd. I hope you have someone to talk to..your grief is what is called “disenfranchised grief” because it is not generally recognized by other people, or its not the situation where people will extend condolences and bring casseroles. But it is valid, and it can be even harder to live with if you don’t have a strong support group that might understand…there is no funeral to help you process it, and a lot of time women feel relieved and ALSO sad and that can be confusing too. A social worker makes a great counselor, and I don’t ONLY say that because I am one.