Baby Fig

Author: Anonymous
Baby Name: Baby Fig
Abortion Date: February 8, 2023

I knew of your existence for one day. I speculated for months, but never thought it would be you growing inside me. The nausea, vomiting, vertigo, food aversions, hormonal changes…I would do it all over again in a heartbeat. Your dad & I weren’t ready for you. We are still growing ourselves as young adults. We want you to have access to all the things you deserve, but we couldn’t provide that at this time. I knew you deserved the world and god I was so ready to fight for that. However, bringing you into this world so soon would have been selfish of us. I loved you before I even knew you were developing in my womb, I loved you the day I found out, and I continue to love you following the most heartbreaking procedure. You were the size of fig when I realized I was carrying you. Nearly 3 months pregnant and I never knew. I think about you everyday when I wake and every night before bed. I miss you even though I never met you…I pray for you and that the higher power is keeping you safe and loved. I envy the god that holds you close. I beg for you to come back to me everyday even though I know that I sent you away. I still beg and I still pray, that you’ll come back to us one day.