To the baby I will never know.

Author: Anonymous
Baby Name: Tatum
Birth Date: June 1, 2003
Abortion Date: 11/07/2002

11 years ago to this day, November 7, I had an abortion. It was something I went back and forth with until I decided to go through with it on that Fall day in 2002.

No one wanted me to keep the baby.

I wish one person would have said to me, “No, don’t do it.” But it was a choice I made. And I now forever live with the consequence. There has not been a day since that day that I have not thought of you.

I remember the smell in the air, the hurt in my heart, the songs that were playing. I want you to know that I am sorry. I’m so sorry.

If only I had the same mind set then, at 21, that I do now at 32, you would be here today. I’ll never get to hold you or sing to you. I’ll never get to look into your eyes and hear your voice. I made a choice that day. One that I regret and will regret until my last breath.

You were my child, my baby. I protect my children fiercely..why and how could I do this? I’m sorry for the pain you felt. I’m sorry for everything I allowed to happen. You deserved to live, just as every other child does. I hope you forgive me. I hope that one day we will be together in heaven so that I CAN see you, hold you, kiss you and tell you that I love you. Until then, please know that I love you.

Please forgive me, my baby.