Crystal Nicole Sheridan
Author: Renee Baby Name: Crystal Nicole Sheridan Birth Date: 1975 Abortion Date: 1975
Baby Girl,
Mommy misses you everyday! You are so loved and I cannot wait to het to heaven to meet you. I am so sorry that you never got a chance to know me, your dad, your grandmother and the rest of your family!! Honey there was/is so much disease and death in our family that I thought I was sparing you the suffering of it all. I thought at the age of 17 and the advice of Planned Parenthood that this was the best thing for YOU!! How wrong we all were!! I know now that you suffered that day more than I can imagine:( That breaks my heart more than anything. Everyone is with you in heaven and I know they are loving you now. I was right that the disease would wipe out everyone but little did I know that I wouldn’t get the gene and therefore would not have passed it on to you:) If I had only listened to you as you moved in me we would be together right now probably with your babies!! Instead I am 57 and all alone. My parents, brothers, your daddy all gone! So I try to give my enormous love I hold in my heart for you to all the other little girls I meet and pray that in someway I am making up in some small way for what you missed out on. If I didn’t believe that Jesus had you now and that my family and your daddy was holding and loving you until I got there I couldn’t bear it. I love you little one. I miss your little hands, toes, and your angel eyes! Until we meet again you have all my heart. Love mom
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Dec 25, 2014 @ 17:42:10
I am finding the verse “Be not overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good” to be a fantastic way to continue in life. I wanted to commend you for loving others. Joining in with children’s charities is one way and I enjoy it so much. New mothers need baby clothes etc., world vision and like entities have children in need. There is so much good to be done before you are reunited with your little one in heaven. I too am near your age and all alone. You are here for a purpose. God Bless!
Dec 29, 2014 @ 12:45:13
Patricia,
When I wrote on this site I NEVER thought anyone would read mine and/or respond!! It brings tears to my eyes to read your words. I found the Lord again when I was 30 and have had much healing but it will never be enough until I am with Jesus and my children. I did not write my whole story as I have very rarely talked about my son. I got pregnant shortly after the loss of Crystal with Michael (named after his father). With both pregnancies I was on the pill and had my periods so it was difficult to tell I was pregnant until I was so far along. This time I sought out a real doctor and he confirmed I was 4 1/2 months. I never was shown what my baby looked like or how far he had or she had developed by either place. This time I demanded my tubes be tied!! My father and four of his siblings along with multiple cousins all had Huntingston’s Disease and were either in institutions or as with my father undergoing shock therapy!! They did not understand those illness’ back then. All I knew was that I had a 50/50 chance of getting it and almost the entire side of my father’s family was ill. My boyfriend was into drugs but I wasn’t because I watched my dad suffer from the symptoms that boyfriend purposely inflicted on himself. I loved him very much but it was a doomed relationship. My OB/GYN put me in Stanford Hospital and had to fight with the lawyers to get my surgery approved. After leaving me in the hallway half sedated for hours they finally agreed to the tie my tubes after the abortion. I had to be induced since I was so far along. The whole thing was a nightmare and so I have kept it hidden (except from Christ). What I did to both my children is so horrific that I am in awe of a God that would still love me and accept me. I have done everything I can to work with young girls since I came to Christ. I tried joining groups but it was too painful. What I found was that God has used me in different ways with young women. I love you and thank you for your words of comfort. A Sister in the Lord and especially one who has walked in my shoes is the only one that can touch my heart like you did. God Bless you.