my dearest angel will/willow
Author: Jordan Baby Name: Will/Willow Birth Date: Nov/Dec 2014 Abortion Date: May 2014
To my precious little angel, its only been a few days since I let you go and it is all I can do to not think about you every second of the day. I love you with all of my heart. Let me begin my story of how my life lead to you. I met this amazing man only a few months before we made you, the whole time things were rocky, when i found out about you I knew immediately what I needed to do. I love your father with all my heart but he is unsure of what he wants in life and then adding you to the story would of sent him flying in the other direction. Decision was made, my dearest angel I only can think about what you may look like, how you would feel in my arms, who you would become. I cant stop thinking about how you might make my life different, who I would become, where life would take us. With all of that in mind, I have to think of you. I can barely care for myself, batteling an eating disorder, then having the ever wavering partner. I only want the best for you. I made the hardest decision in my life, letting you go. I made my appointment, two weeks later I made my way waiting there with your father. I go in the back to find out that you had let go before I did. Now I m hit with a whole new wave of emotions. I still went through with the appointment furthering letting you go. My percious Will/Willow you knew i couldnt give you the best. I cant imagine going a day without thinking about you. I love you forever.