you are the hardest decision of my life

Author: Anonymous
Birth Date: 08/10/2018
Abortion Date: 05/02/2018

Dear my sweet baby,
Your almost 5 weeks old and you will never know how much I already love you and want to protect you despite only finding out 3 days ago you exist but deep down I knew i was pregnant with you or a few weeks, mainly because you clearly didn’t like any kind of foods on offer! I am so so sorry that i can’t bring you into this world, as much as i want to I cannot give you the life you deserve. You deserve to have a loving family and a loving dad and the financial backing to bring you up and it pains me to say that at the moment all i can offer you is my love and that simply just isn’t enough. I know in time that my whole family would have loved you very much and your dads parents too, but i cannot ignore the fact you deserve a stable dad and id love to say i would be able to do this on my own but realistically i am uncertain and its that uncertanty that I won’t risk for you.
On Monday at roughly 11:45am I will set you free to heaven and until then i will defend you from unkind words and protect you with all my heart. Please know that i am making this decision because I think is best for you. Your mummy loves you so much and I fear I will regret this decision for the rest of my life.
Ive let you down. I hope you forgive me,


All my love your mummy,