I wish I could’ve met you

Author: Anonymous
Birth Date: June 2020
Abortion Date: December 2019

I was only 17 when i got pregnant with you, and I was told you were only the size of a jelly bean when I made the decision that I did. I am so sorry that I never gave you the chance to see our world and I know now what a selfish decision it was that I made.

I want you to know that I never didn’t want you. I was so young, and still am and my parents and the people around me had such an influence on my actions. If i could take it all back I would, but i hold onto the faith that you will be brought to me through God and the Universe in a way that I can’t anticipate.

I love you. I think about you all the time, and it feels like not a day goes by where I don’t think about what our lives would be like together now if I didn’t do what I did. I can’t take it back but I pray that God forgives me, and is keeping you some place special so one day we can finally be together.

Your dad was confused and didn’t know how to react when we found out we were pregnant and we haven’t spoken much since. Deep down I know he’s hurting too.

To my baby who I never got the chance to meet, I hope you are watching over me and I hope you can forgive me for what I have done. Thank you for showing me what life is really about, and giving me a voice that I didn’t have before you. I feel your strength and power in me and I am sorry I took that away from you.

Until get to meet this is in eternally loving memory of you, bubba ❤️

Love Mum x