I’m so sorry my sweet angel…

Author: Anonymous
Abortion Date: January 24, 2013

It’s been a little over 3 years now. On my 17th birthday I had you aborted. You were 8 weeks & 2 days old. I couldn’t even look at the ultra sound. I was so ashamed at what I was about to do to you. I was scared. Your father was abusive & I didn’t want that life for you.. for me. I was selfish. I kept telling myself that I was doing this for you. I was lying. It was for me. I just wanted a way out & when I became pregnant with you, I knew there would be no escape. To this day he still doesn’t know. I hate him for being how he was & making me so terrified to have a child with him. I hate that I lost you. & it’s been so hard to forgive myself. You have a little brother now. He’s 2 years old. His dad isn’t around. He wanted me to get an abortion, but I could never do that again. The emotional pain is too much to bare. I just wish I could take it back & keep you a secret from your dad. I just want to hold you in my arms & tell you how sorry I am. Aborting you was the worst mistake of my life. Especially after having your brother & experiencing how much love is in that bond… I’d give anything to take it back. You have made me a stronger, wiser person & although I believe God has forgiven me for my mistake, I haven’t completely forgiven myself yet… I’ll see you one day soon my sweet angel.