Ithought it would be easier
At the 16 week check up they said you had a fatal condition and when you were born, you would suffocate. How cruel and heart wrenching for all. I thought it would be better to end it right away. How could I carry you knowing you would die, and probably in a terrible way? No one told me until I got to the clinic that what I was about to do to you was right up there with the ISIS. Barbaric, cruel, monsterous. They literally pulled you out, piece by piece, all the while telling me to be quiet. I will never get over it. You will never forgive me. .Please, anyone faced with this situation, don’t believe what they tell you. It will terrorize you for life. It is NOT easier. Let God take care of the way we die, not an abortionist, because you will never forgive yourself for the torture you inflict on your beloved child.
Apr 09, 2015 @ 23:47:46
Dear Margaret, I am so very, very sorry that you have endured so much anguish and heartache. The abortion industry is a tool of satan in the war against the righteous things of God an His standards. The Scripture, John 8:44, speaks of satan as a liar and the father of lies. He was a liar from the beginning. He spoke to Eve and said, ” Yea, hath God Said?” That was to cast doubt on what God had spoken to Adam, and then Adam told Eve. He still works the same today in the billion dollar abortion industry. Taking the lives of unborn children in exchange for dollars. He cares nothing for life. It’s an industry of death. It brings emotional death to the heart of a woman’s soul, and she will live in sorrow until she acknowledges her actions and guilt to the Lord and receives His forgiveness. You were lied to. Your description sounds horrible, but sadly it’s accurate and it can’t be taken back. It will help you to give your child a name and then ask him or her to forgive you. Your child will do that for you and if you are a Christian or become one, you will meet your child in heaven one day. Your baby has been with Jesus ever since its earthly life ended. My abortion was 36 years ago. It has helped me to attend an Abortion recovery group with other women who have allowed their children to be aborted.
We have given our children a name and have asked them to forgive us. We believe they have. When you are able to do this it will bring comfort to your heart and you can begin to move forward. Jesus created both of you and He still loves you just like He loves your child even though you are not together yet.
Read Numbers, chapter 6 and verses 24 – 26 and that is God. message for your broken heart. When you identify with Jesus and call out to Him, satan has to flee. Ask His forgiveness and He will take your sin and throw it as far as the east is from the west. That’s God’s promise to you and He never lies!!
Jun 11, 2015 @ 08:53:48
Look for a post abortion recovery group in your area through the local crisis pregnancy center. We can help! I lead one in my area! This literally saved my life!
Jul 24, 2015 @ 02:43:37
I can’t imagine the pain in your heart. I am nobody. I am nobody to say anything. I am a woman. I can’t say anything compared to your story. But I say this. from ex-mother to ex-mother, a kiss from me directly onto your heart, and I would recommend you perform a private creative ritual to honor your lost one. great masters in the art of the mind and psychology such as Alejandro Jodorowski recommend planting a tree over an item that would symbolize your lost child.
There are beautiful trees that live to be 140 years old. I would recommend you plant one over the “symbol of your child”, and that way it merges with the tree roots and over time, the tree which embodies your child, will outlive you the way it should have been.
You could also find comfort in spreading the word about your experience or fight the medical industry. I believe that abortion can save young women’s lives *under certain circumstances*, what you experienced could be a lawsuit. You could write a book, let it out. or make a website. don’t suffer alone. You are not alone.
hand of warmth,
“Northern Light’s mother”