To Joshua: From Your Mother A Murderer
Author: Donna Baby Name: JOSHUA Birth Date: May 1984 Abortion Date: September 1983
Sweet Joshua…I listened to the screaming lies of the world instead of the truth of the still small voice of God inside of me. I murdered you in cold blood through abortion. I thought there would be no consequences. However, as I lay on the table while they drained your life from my womb I knew what I was doing was wrong. When I got home I cried and cried and cried. This is the part the liars don’t tell you about…the hole that is left in your heart for the rest of your life. I know I am forgiven by Jesus. I will see you my precious son in heaven. I look forward to that day when I can wrap my arms around you and tell you how much I love you. “This day I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live…” Deuteronomy 30:19
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Jan 24, 2017 @ 19:55:55
I had an abortion 36 years ago. I have never forgotten . I listened to the lies too. I’m thankful you know Jesus – He saved me from utter despair. God saw fit to bless me with other children, three natural and two adopted. I am a grandmother now too. I deserve to be a mother the least of any woman on earth, and yet
God trusted me with more children. I am so very thankful. I hope you have found such blessings in your life and the peace that only knowing Jesus gives us.
Jan 24, 2017 @ 20:37:21
I felt the same way…I didn’t deserve to be a mother. I was a murderer and what I deserved was the same death I caused my children. I call it murder because it was willful, deliberate, and premeditated. This is the legal definition of murder in the first degree. It’s the worst kind of murder and carries with it high penalties including the death penalty.
Jesus showed me we all deserve death because we are sinners. He took the death I deserved on the cross to set me free from all my sin including murder. Although I was forgiven by Jesus I still had to forgive myself. I kept asking basically pleading with the Lord to forgive me for murdering my children and abusing my fertility when there are women who are unable to have children. It has taken a long time but I do believe I am working through the forgiving myself part. The Lord did bless me with 4 more children. I miscarried my son, Brandon.
I am just starting to be able to talk to people about my two abortions although they happened 34 years ago. I felt deeply ashamed for a long time even after I gave my life to Jesus. There are countless men and women walking around carrying this heavy burden in silence. However, I realized I have a testimony. It is something I am now willing to share. Thank you for your reply. God Bless You and Your Family!
Jul 10, 2017 @ 22:47:43
I too murdered my baby 25 years ago. I never thought I would have one because my Mom tried to abort me and yet I lived. I am so glad that both of you were blessed with more children. I never got pregnant again. I am in complete despair even though I love Jesus. I am childless, very sick, alone and so completely filled with regret. I feel punished and I hate myself. It has been so hard to live with and it never got better only worse. The consequences have been more than I can bare. God Bless you. Thank you for sharing.