May 15, I’ll never forget
Author: Anonymous Baby Name: Chloe Jean Birth Date: May 15 2015 Abortion Date: October 2014
As may 15 gets closer the numbness I originally felt to all feelings and the world around me is going away. The closer your due date gets the harder everything gets and the more the regret and heartbreak comes out. I never got it confirmed but I just knew you were a girl, the same way I just knew I was pregnant with you at a short 2 weeks pregnant. Chloe Jean was what your name was supposed to be, and what i know you as. I would do anything to rewind time and take that horrible decision back. To tell your dad we would make it work and to tell everyone else the same thing. I know I am young but I would do anything to just feel you growing in my belly, to feel you kick. And I would do anything to be able to hold you in my arms in a month in a half when you should be welcomed into this world and to watch you grow and laugh and learn. I Have missed you everyday and I wish I could take it all back. I love you Chloe Jean and I’ll see you one day. I’m so sorry.
Mar 25, 2015 @ 01:05:33
You chose a beautiful name for your little one. I am so sorry for your loss. Our society says that abortion is no big deal, but those of us who have experienced if know that’s not true. Your little girl is in heaven in the loving arms of Jesus. He knew her before she was born according to Psalm 139:14-17. He knew Chloe Jean before she was ever formed in the womb and was waiting for her. He will forgive you and heal your heart, too, when you ask. Jesus created you and loves you just as much as he loves your daughter. Let Him heal you of all the guilt and pain and use your experience to help some other young girl avoid the pain you are feeling. He will walk with you through your valley of pain and grief. You can read my story, OUR TRIBUTE, and know that October would have been our child’s birth month. That would be 36 years ago. I am now in an abortion recovery group so many years later. Please do the same and listen to other women’s stories. There’s no shame in meeting with others who are grieving. They will understand and you can be spared years of solitary grief.
Look at onlineforlife.org and let them help you find a group in your area. May God bless you with a sense of His divine presence. My prayer for you is Numbers 6:24-26.