My Angel Babies, Part II

Author: Anonymous
Baby Name: Angel Babies
Birth Date: unknown
Abortion Date: multiple

Dedicated to my six Angel Grand-Babies, lost to me forever but always loved and held within my heart: My children made their sad, misguided choices and as a result, I will never know the joy of sharing in your lives.

I wish that things had been different. It would have been better for you to be adopted than aborted, but those decisions were not in my hands…except for the first one. I was younger and pro-choice at the time; I helped my 14 y.o. daughter and I feel so ashamed and saddened now as I look back on that time period in my life.

I swore to never do this again…and I didn’t. But…I didn’t help matters by refusing to be there when she needed help later on. I told her not to come to me for help if it happened again. I thought that would be enough to scare her straight. I never knew – after telling her that I would not assist her in murdering another child – that she had three more abortions later on. I had NO idea until about 10 years ago. I was shocked to my core.

Then, my son and his then-girlfriend became pregnant with twins while they were sophomores in college. I tried to talk them out of their decision and offer options, but they refused to listen as well.

Thus, I am a grandmother of 7 children, but only one is alive. Thank G-d that my daughter chose life for her 5th child, and again for the 6th one; we are expecting a new addition to the family in October of 2023. However, my heart remains heavy with sadness for the ones that were intentionally discarded like trash and not talked about – ever – as if they never existed.

You were never trash. You were never just a ‘lump of cells’. You were human and alive. I hope we can meet someday in the great beyond. Just know that you are loved and cherished…and never forgotten.

I’ve been told by other pro-lifers that I shouldn’t blame myself. I didn’t know. I fell for the lies. I cannot control the actions of others, and G-d will forgive me. Honestly, though, I am having a very hard time forgiving myself. The ONLY thing that I can do at this point is become more involved in the pro-life movement and help to save the lives of other preborns as well as help their parents.

Yitgadal v’yitkadash sh’mei raba. B’alma div’r chirutei, v’yamlich malchutei, b’chayeichon uvyomeichon uvchayei d’chol beit Yisrael, ba-agala uvizman kariv v’im’ru: Amen.
Y’hei shmei raba m’varach l’alam ul’almei almaya. Yitbarach v’yishtabach, v’yitpar-ar v’yitromam, v’yitnaseh, v’yithadar v’yitaleh, v’yit’halal sh’mei d’kidusha b’rich hu.
L’eila min kol-birchata v’shirata, tushb’chata v’nechemata da’amarin b’alma, v’imru: Amen.
Y’hei shlama raba min sh’maya v’chayim, aleinu v’al kol Yisrael, v’imru: Amen.
Oseh shalom bimromav, hu ya-aseh shalom aleinu v’al kol Yisrael, v’imru: Amen.