My Angel Babies, Part II

Author: Anonymous
Baby Name: Angel Babies
Birth Date: unknown
Abortion Date: multiple

Dedicated to my six Angel Grand-Babies, lost to me forever but always loved and held within my heart: My children made their sad, misguided choices and as a result, I will never know the joy of sharing in your lives.

I wish that things had been different. It would have been better for you to be adopted than aborted, but those decisions were not in my hands…except for the first one. I was younger and pro-choice at the time; I helped my 14 y.o. daughter and I feel so ashamed and saddened now as I look back on that time period in my life.

I swore to never do this again…and I didn’t. But…I didn’t help matters by refusing to be there when she needed help later on. I told her not to come to me for help if it happened again. I thought that would be enough to scare her straight. I never knew – after telling her that I would not assist her in murdering another child – that she had three more abortions later on. I had NO idea until about 10 years ago. I was shocked to my core.

Then, my son and his then-girlfriend became pregnant with twins while they were sophomores in college. I tried to talk them out of their decision and offer options, but they refused to listen as well.

Thus, I am a grandmother of 7 children, but only one is alive. Thank G-d that my daughter chose life for her 5th child, and again for the 6th one; we are expecting a new addition to the family in October of 2023. However, my heart remains heavy with sadness for the ones that were intentionally discarded like trash and not talked about – ever – as if they never existed.

You were never trash. You were never just a ‘lump of cells’. You were human and alive. I hope we can meet someday in the great beyond. Just know that you are loved and cherished…and never forgotten.

I’ve been told by other pro-lifers that I shouldn’t blame myself. I didn’t know. I fell for the lies. I cannot control the actions of others, and G-d will forgive me. Honestly, though, I am having a very hard time forgiving myself. The ONLY thing that I can do at this point is become more involved in the pro-life movement and help to save the lives of other preborns as well as help their parents.

MOURNER’S KADDISH:
Yitgadal v’yitkadash sh’mei raba. B’alma div’r chirutei, v’yamlich malchutei, b’chayeichon uvyomeichon uvchayei d’chol beit Yisrael, ba-agala uvizman kariv v’im’ru: Amen.
Y’hei shmei raba m’varach l’alam ul’almei almaya. Yitbarach v’yishtabach, v’yitpar-ar v’yitromam, v’yitnaseh, v’yithadar v’yitaleh, v’yit’halal sh’mei d’kidusha b’rich hu.
L’eila min kol-birchata v’shirata, tushb’chata v’nechemata da’amarin b’alma, v’imru: Amen.
Y’hei shlama raba min sh’maya v’chayim, aleinu v’al kol Yisrael, v’imru: Amen.
Oseh shalom bimromav, hu ya-aseh shalom aleinu v’al kol Yisrael, v’imru: Amen.