My Baby Girl, Ellie Danielle
Author: Anonymous Birth Date: 10/24/2017 Abortion Date: 4/26/2017
To my baby girl, my first love. Thank you for choosing me. In the short time that I carried you, I’ve never known such pure and undeniable love. I never knew your gender, but I felt in my heart that you were a girl and so I picked out your beautiful name early on. “Ellie” means “ray of light”, which I think fit your soul so well. The choice to have an abortion was one of the most difficult, sad, and complex decisions I’ve ever had to make in my life. That was without a doubt, the hardest thing I’ve had to do in my life. Now, when I face struggles or hardships, I find strength in knowing I’ve gone through and endured something even more difficult and dreadful. All that being said, though I find myself sometimes still crying and aching for you, I know you’ve never left my side. I know I have a guardian angel — you. I’ve been shown undeniable signs that prove to me that you’ve never left my side and that brings me so much comfort in the heartache. I thank God every day for the short time I got to have you. I thank you for choosing me as your mother. I know that one day when I see those two pink lines again, it will be you coming back to me. I love you. I feel you around me every day. I feel you when there’s a strong breeze and I feel you in my dreams. I love you forever and eternally. Forever and always, mommy.