My beautiful angel zachary Alexander
Author: Anonymous Baby Name: Zachary Alexander Abortion Date: July 25, 2014
July 25, 2014 . The worst day of my life , the day I chose to end your life . I’ve never felt so much pain & agony so empty . I love you so much & I would give anything to go back in time & keep you , to feel you grow in me , to have you & to hold you . I’m so sorry I didn’t protect you & give you the love I was supposed to . You’ll always be a part of me baby boy . It’s crazy how much I miss you although I never knew you . I pray to God to forgive me & I ask him all the time to give you hugs & kisses from me .. I always wonder how you would’ve looked .. Letting you go is the worst decision I’ve ever made . I was just so scared . March , the month you were supposed to be born & you aren’t here . It kills me that you aren’t with me. I can’t seem to forgive myself & don’t know how . But I love you baby & always will carry you in my heart because you are my son & will always be a part of me .
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Apr 08, 2015 @ 18:26:40
Dear,
Please know that God forgives you. He is caring for your little one until you can be with him after you live a long full life. Honor Zachary by caring for and holding your future children as you wish to care for him now.
Thank you for your letter. You will save more babies than you will ever know.
God Bless you.
Apr 09, 2015 @ 19:42:45
God LOVES YOU! And if you have asked Him he has forgiven you! God doesn’t hold this against you, there can be good life after this! If you have made Jesus Lord you will see your son again soon! Give Jesus your life, He will do Great things with it! Ep.3:20 Now unto him that is able to exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us, Unto him be glory
Apr 08, 2015 @ 18:54:06
You have treasure in heaven, mom.
Apr 08, 2015 @ 19:16:39
Hi Zachary’s mommy. I can’t imagine what you must be feeling! I always hate to hear that a precious, innocent life has been taken & I both hate & love hearing a story like yours! I hate it because I can’t imagine that kind of never-ending emotional pain! I love it because it has the potential to reach a woman thinking about abortion & be the thing that makes her choose life for her precious baby! If it saves even 1 life, your story has made a huge difference in the world! I’m praying for you! Big hugs to you & BIG hugs & kisses to sweet, precious Zachary in Heaven!
Apr 08, 2015 @ 19:30:52
May God bring you His peace and the healing that only His love provides. Thank you for your courageous witness to the truth about the pain of abortion. Together, you and Zachary, through your tragedy bring truth and hope to others. Don’t ever underestimate the power of your testimony or the boundless love and mercy of our Lord. Prayers for you and Zachary tonight. You are both much loved!
Apr 08, 2015 @ 19:36:50
Zachary knows you are sorry and so does Christ Jesus. And know Zachary is now living with Jesus in heaven. Blessed Jesus, please comfort Zachary Alexander’s mother as he knows her abortion was wrong. Please Jesus help her to forgive herself and and go forward praising you and telling others of the torture she has been going through so that they may not have to go through that themselves. Thank you Lord Jesus for all your promises to us!! In They name, I pray….Amen!
Apr 09, 2015 @ 16:10:42
AMEN!
Apr 08, 2015 @ 20:27:03
Zachery’s Mom,
It’s true that abortion is a terrible thing. You were sacred and desperate. Let me assure you from the authority of God’s Word that all you have to do to be forgiven is to ask. Your creator, the Son of God, the one who carried all our sins to the cross stands ready to forgive you of every sin you’ve ever comitted. Ask Him to forgive you and to guide your life from this time forward. One verse: Jphn 3:16.
Also read the book of John, Romans and Corinthians. There is no sin a outside the love of God.
Zachery is being kept safe in Heaven. He is waiting for you and he is happy.
Apr 08, 2015 @ 20:42:06
I went through the same thing. My baby boy would have been born April 3,1991. I went through so much pain and anger. I tried to kill myself a number of times. In January 2014 I started going to Church. I could not handle my feelings and emotions from losing my baby. I laid it all down at God’s feet. I have never felt so much peace and comfort that I have now. I’m still attending the same Church and I thank God everyday for what he has done in my life.
Apr 10, 2015 @ 01:01:37
It’s the worse thing any women can put herself through . I’m in so much pain, my spirit is so broken.. I go to church & I pray & pray but I feel as if I’ll never get better..
Apr 08, 2015 @ 21:55:34
Zachary’s mom, our God is a loving and forgiving God. As long as you have repented, you will be forgiven and accepted into his kingdom where you will be able to hold your sweet baby! I will be praying for you, that you may find healing, that your story and Zachary’s story will change the minds of mothers who are in the same place you were nearly a year ago. I pray they will be drawn away from the delusion that is abortion. Stay pro-life strong, for baby Zachary. God bless you and may you be granted into his heavenly kingdom in years to come. Keep your chin up gorgeous, Zachary is watching over you from heaven.
Apr 08, 2015 @ 23:12:30
To Zachary’s Mom, GOD has forgiven you. When he died on that cross he died for your sin of abortion & every other sin you have ever committed & every one else’s sin of abortion, murder, cheating, homosexuality, gossiping, adultery, fornication, taking GOD’S name in vain & worshiping false idols. Read your Bible and it will tell you what all the sins are, these are the ones I remember. Just remember you are forgiven and your son is in Heaven right now waiting to meet you when you die. He isn’t mad at you he forgave you, he is happy. How can he not be having Jesus & all the saints on Heaven to play with. Like Jesus said to the woman at the well, “go & sin no more”. Read your Bible on forgiveness hopefully that will help you with your guilt. GOD bless you. In Christian love Connie
Apr 09, 2015 @ 02:30:49
I am SO sorry for your loss of, your son, Zachary Alexander. If you have asked God to forgive you…He has. What you are doing, letting others know your regret, is a WONDERFUL thing. By doing so, you may help save another baby’s life!…..I don’t know what it feels like to have had an abortion, but I can understand some of the regret you feel. Many years ago, when I was in High School, my cousin came to me & told me that she was pregnant. She was a year ahead of me. Back then, I believed that a woman should have ‘the right to choose’. I believed Satan’s lie, that what was growing inside my cousin wasn’t a baby, yet. I told her she should get an abortion or her future would be ruined. I REALLY tried hard to get her to decide that an abortion was the best answer for her…..THANK GOD SHE DIDN’T LISTEN TO ME!!! She had her son, & kept him to raise herself. When that baby boy was born, I had to face the fact that I had told her to kill him! Every time I saw him, for years, I felt SO guilty. I know God has forgiven me for what I did. I tell others my story hoping that it may help save a baby’s life…..Today my cousin’s son has children of his own….THANK GOD!!!…….I will pray for you, that God will help you heal, & that He will use your story for His purpose, & that He will give you a BLESSED future!!!!
Apr 09, 2015 @ 09:05:04
God is an awesome God! He knows what is in your heart…you will use your experience to help yourself and others in ways you cannot imagine. Your baby knows you love him! He can help you heal. Just ask…praying for your peace.
Apr 09, 2015 @ 09:51:41
There is no condemnation in Christ Jesus. May the Lord of mercy bring you comfort.
Blessings & Love
Apr 09, 2015 @ 14:55:52
To Zachary’s mother,
You are not the only woman who made this decision and now regrets it. I am one also.
Apr 09, 2015 @ 22:29:19
It’s so hard to get past this , but I know deep down God forgives me & forgives you as well .. We will only grow stronger from this & our precious babies love us just as we love them . Stay strong
Apr 09, 2015 @ 17:00:46
No life is wasted. Not one single one…. Little Zach has already affected your life and is now impacting others. What was intended for evil, God always uses for good….. Take comfort in His Mercy, as we all do. Abortion is not the unpardonable sin and God is not through with you– He’s just beginning….
Apr 09, 2015 @ 23:05:13
Dearest Zachary’s Mom–I am praying for you that you KNOW that God does forgive you. See God’s promises for forgiveness in the Bible: I John 1:9; Psalm 103:8-12; and Psalm 32:1-5. YES…it is a fact that God forgives you. The hard part is forgiving yourself. But you can channel your regret and love for Zachary by supporting pro-life groups and candidates. Get into God’s Word every day and get to know Him better. If you have children, devote yourself to loving them and teaching them HOW MUCH God loves them. Take care of yourself…don’t hurt yourself. I know exactly what your going through. For 45 years, God has shown me his unconditional love for me and His forgiveness for ending my unborn baby’s life. Please be assured of my fervent prayer for you-for God’s peace and hope. Praying on His promise im Psalm 34:18-“God is close to the broken-hearted, and He saves those who are crushed in spirit.”
Apr 09, 2015 @ 23:59:36
To Zachary’s mom,
You are not alone. My little Lisa is in heaven also. But God is all forgiving and there is nothing He cannot heal. If only it was as easy to forgive ourselves. I believe that someday we will meet and I pray that Lisa will forgive me too, because then I think my heart will be whole again.
Apr 10, 2015 @ 09:07:55
life is complex, imperfect and full of suffering. you are not alone. we all make mistakes. some choose not to learn from them, but it is encouraging to read that you can. as deep as despair can exist, even more so can love conquer. hold your arms wide open and lean into life with mature content and never let the worst day overtake you again! xoxo
Jun 11, 2015 @ 08:59:03
I just wanted to let all of you know that there are post abortion recovery programs all over the country! I lead one in western North Carolina and it saved my life and the lives of others. We want to lead people to freedom in Christ. Meeting and sharing with others in a safe, confidential and caring environment releases the shackles that bind us! Check out your local center or contact me and I will try ot point you in the right direction! You don’t have to live this way! God does not want that for us!