My sweet little Angels

Author: Theresa
Baby Name: Harmony and Joshua

My sweet little angels I am so sorry I did not give you the chance to be born. My priest told me to name you so Harmony Michelle you were my first. I was only 17 and your daddy went up north to work I did not think he was going to come back. I was scared to tell my mom so I talked to my sister. I decided to have an abortion. When I would go to bed at night I would cry for you. I wanted my baby. The day after I had the abortion your daddy came back. That made it worst for me. I tried to tell him but I don’t think he understood because his English wasn’t that good. I would cry for you a lot. I ended up pregnant again. I lost the baby and I felt like I was being punished. Your daddy and I got married and had a little girl it wasn’t a easy she was born at 7 and a half months. I had high blood pressure and had to stay in bed. Some years later I got pregnant again. I went to my doctor he said yes I was pregnant and if I had the baby I would die. He told me to be thankful for having my daughter and he suggested a abortion. Your daddy and I decided to go through with it and once again I made a big mistake. After it was over and I woke up I was crying and the nurse ask me what was wrong. I told her I could never have another baby. I named you Joshua Michael. I never really realized what I had done until I started going back to church. I never new I put you both through pain or you had a heart beat so soon. I am so sorry for what I put you both through. I bought two little precious angels dolls and name them after the two of you. I can’t wait for the day when I can see you and hold you in my arms. You are both my precious little angels who are up in heaven with Mary and Jesus. You do have a brother too. I didn’t plan on getting pregnant again but I did. I cried and when I went to the doctor I told him all about what the other doctor said the last time. He told me he should of never told me I couldn’t have another baby and that all pregnancies are not the same. I almost lost the baby. He was born healthy. I have suffered for years for what I did but I did find healing when I joined the pro-life group at church in a protest. I made a sign that said I regret my abortion. I love you Harmony and Joshua and hope you forgive me.