NEVER FORGIVE MYSELF! We were told “it” was just tissue back then!!
My ONLY child I’d ever have (I’m 57 & have no children) would be in his or her 20’s now (2021). Back then there were no EARLY sonogram. We honestly believed what we were told, it was tissue at the beginning. I gave myself til the 6th wk to have my abortion or not. The father, my ex-husband (we had been divorced for yrs), didn’t believe me & I was disabled, alone & had no one to turn to. I didn’t think I had any other choice. That was in the 1990’s & I’ve suffered ever since. I can forgive myself everything BUT THIS! It haunts me to my core, daily, for almost 30 yrs., & especially after giving my heart to the Lord & realizing how precious EVERY child is! To know I chose to kill the only child I’d ever be able to have is beyond horrific & I can only pray I can meet her (I believe it was a girl) in Heaven & apologize for being so dumb! Now I care for 2 elderly parents who BOTH have different dementias & realize I’ll never have a child to help me in my old age. This industry must be stopped! Millions of the most innocent in our country whom we are supposed to protect, all dead now! It hurts the mother forever!! Now I could be a grandma. But I’ll never know that joy either. It is almost impossible to live with anymore!
Nov 04, 2021 @ 22:33:46
I regret beyond words my choice, it’s unspeakable and unbearable pain. I also was brainwashed by the “lump of tissue” and “reproductive rights”, the mainstream broken cultural normalization of killing one’s precious child. It’s horrible. It took me years to finally realize that I had been in denial about how horrible it truly is. One thing we can do is keep sharing our stories because one day, we might be able to prevent another woman from being devastated to the core. I am so sorry that you are going through this pain. It’s so horrible. I think about how I deprived the world and myself of two beautiful souls, because I was so ignorant and so panicked instead of realizing that it was honestly the best thing that every happened to me. I just didn’t realize it. I have no excuse. I just want to be of some help to the world while I am still here. And honestly, I don’t think any of us are evil monsters. We made a horrible decision, one that is pushed on us even though we are responsible for the choice. We can’t change what happened, but there can still be love and healing and hope while we are still here. I hope that I see my babies in heaven too, someway, somehow; I hope the universe somehow understands that I didn’t mean to intentionally kill them even though it defies all logic and common sense. I separated that part of me and was cut off from my heart and inner knowing because of fear. We don’t deserve a life of suffering or to burn in hell forever. We can still do some good here. I pray that you can feel some peace, with all of my heart.
Feb 22, 2022 @ 16:47:27
God’s grace to you through Jesus Christ! He is the way, the truth and the life of God. His death paid it all and provides complete forgiveness and healing. Believe in him and you will be with your children for eternity. Heaven is REAL; there are many eyewitnesses to attest to that. God bless you sister!
Aug 01, 2022 @ 14:08:47
Please forgive yourself ♥️ Jesus has payed your sins at the cross and he can heal you. But you need to forgive yourself and trust in Jesus mercy.
When you are ready, if you want, please join prolife movement if you havent already. We need your voice to tell the brainwashed young girls and boys how precious life is and that abortion is not just a quick fix for a problem. Blessings/Tanja