To my older sibling

Author: Anonymous
Abortion Date: May 1986

I am not sure if you would have been a boy or a girl, but in my heart I feel you were a girl. I remember as a young boy feeling like I didn’t belong to our parents for some reason but not understanding and constantly asking if I was adopted. Your life was taken and our parents became pregnant with me 2 months afterwards. It has been an immense struggle dealing with the guilt and feelings of inadequacy of knowing that a life was sacrificed for my own. I feel like I am not good enough to have taken your place and wish to do more. I feel you with me daily and I want you to know that I hope I am worthy to meet you when the day comes. I love you.