Stevie Rae

Author: Jorie
Baby Name: Stevie
Birth Date: April 2014
Abortion Date: October 2013


I want you to know you were made with love. Your dad had been my best friend for 7 years and we loved one another with all our heart. I’m sorry I wasn’t strong enough to MAKE another way. I did what I thought was best, for both of us. I was struggling with anxiety, and Bi Polar Disorder (leading to multiple suicide attempts), which I used drugs to self medicate. I was a lost, broken, kid who literally had trouble keeping myself alive. I always dreamed of being a mom since I was old enough to hold a doll. But I knew if I was honest with myself, the person I had become was not ready if not incapable of being anyone’s mom.

You saved me from myself. I didn’t know who I was and what I did know, I hated. I was a shallow, selfish, reckless child.

Today is the first anniversary of the night you were made. I hope your proud of the changes I’ve made and the woman I’ve become. You brought me back to God, opened my eyes to all the beauty I had been missing, and after I forgave myself I began to love myself for the first time. Thank you for being such a blessing. I will always miss you.