The day after
Author: Anonymous Baby Name: Payton Birth Date: November 30 2015 Abortion Date: May 8 2015
I’m 16, and my choice for abortion felt right at first, but now I can’t stop regretting the choice to give you up. I woke up today, feeling awful like a murdered. I was selfish and collapsed under the pressure of friends telling me abortion was the right thing to do. I wish I had never listened to them, I was also scared to tell my parents. What if I would’ve told them? Would I have kept you. Your name would have been Payton, girl or boy. I hope one day I meet you, and you come to forgive me for what I had done. I hope one day to have many children 5+ and treat them right and honour them, I will tell them they had a sibling named Payton who did not make it. I hope God has forgiven me for my sins, as Jesus christ did hang on the cross for us. I love you payton and I’m sorry you did not make it into the world. I’ll always wonder wheather U would’ve been my little girl or boy, I always thought you’d be a girl. I will honour you on your birthday and everyone that comes after the firsts. You will forever been in my heart. I love you Payton.
May 11, 2015 @ 14:42:15
What you are experiencing is POST ABORTION STRESS . The best thing that you can do is locate a recovery group in your area and begin meeting once a week with other women who feel the same way you do. There are millions of US and I just completed such a study which helps a post abortive woman deal with the grief of having killed her own child. The same website that posts this memorial can give you information about the location of a group. Your baby is safe in the arms of Jesus. He will forgive you when you ask him. Then you must forgive yourself and move on to live a life of integrity and honesty in the presence of your Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. John 14:6 reads
Jun 10, 2015 @ 19:37:47
If you have asked God for forgiveness, he has given it to you. I feel confident Payton would too. You will see her again in heaven someday. I am so sorry you are suffering … We all make mistakes and have selfish moments, some are just more costly than others. I love how you said you would honor Paytons memory and tell your other children about her. I will pray for you! I hope in time you will find peace, healing and forgiveness. Like Trisha said, I hope you locate a resource to help you deal with your post abortion stress. Please seek help, you will find comfort, support and friendship.
Jul 26, 2015 @ 18:42:41
I would like to echo what Trisha and Jenna have said. I do not know your name, little sister, but God does, and I will be praying for you.
Aug 04, 2015 @ 13:56:13
I too will be praying for you! Jesus didn’t die on the cross for us to carry the load. He took on all of our sin for us. As the other’s have said if you have asked for forgiveness, you have it! I’m so happy you shared your story. Jesus redeems our sins and uses them. This story may touch someone’s heart and cause them to change their mind. Until we all meet in heaven, you are in my prayers!