To my beloved baby

Author: My First Name
Birth Date: June 2017
Abortion Date: 17 November 2016

Dear sweetheart,

There is not a day that goes by that I don’t think of you. I miss you more than I can ever describe and love you more than any form of expression. I despise myself for making you pay for my weakness and poor judgment and I am physically pained to think of it, which I more than deserved to feel.

Time does nothing to change the way I feel, I cry all the time and long for your forgiveness whilst knowing I don’t deserve it, even though I can never have it anyway. People have said to forgive myself and that it’s done now but I never will because forgiving myself means nothing to me. Daddy tries to forget, and isn’t bothered by it, but he once cried a little, I think he has buried it down.

You have a little sister who is very loved by many people and it kills me that I took that away from you. Please know I love you just as much, and sometimes, as horrible as it may make me, even more than her. I’m a bad person who made a stupid decision and I wish every day I could trade my life for yours. I promise when your sister is older, I will tell her all about you, so that when I am gone, she will tell her family about you, and everyone will remember you.

I love you so much it hurts and I am so sorry for what I did to you. I love you beyond what words can express. Please forgive me my love. I love you.

Love always my beautiful baby,

Love mummy.