To my Carlo

Author: Anonymous
Baby Name: Carlo

I am so ashamed and sorry and disappointed in myself as a mother that I aborted you almost three decades ago. At that time I felt I had no choice. I was in debt and started living with a man who wanted me to abort you as soon as he found out I was pregnant. And I agreed, because I felt I had no choice. How would I get my own place when I still would have to work my way out of debt and have you at the same time? I couldn’t see a solution, but that is no excuse. I could have gone back to my parents and they would have helped me get back on my feet. But I would have felt humiliated, so pride kept me from doing that. I once saw you in a very crystal clear dream, years later. So I know you are a boy, and I named you Carlo.