To my little angels
Author: My First Name Birth Date: April 2017 Jun 2018 Abortion Date: Dec 2016-2017
To my little angels.
I am sorry for never really taking the time to sit down and talk to you. You guys would have been turn three and two this coming year, and I am sure your dad and I would have been spoiling you two to no end. There isn’t a day that goes by that I do not think of you two. How you guys would have looked, what hair color would you have gotten; your father’s blonde hair or my dark brown hair? What would have been your first words, what would have been your favorite songs, movies, toys etc. Would you guys come running to me every time I came home from work screaming mommy I missed you, or would you guys be bothering your dad to play with you guys when he came home from work. I wonder if you would have looked more like your dad or me.
I always wonder what life would be if you guys were here. How much your grandparents would have loved you, and how much your Uncles and Aunt would have loved you guys too. I know for a fact you would have had lots of people loving you two, probably so much that they would also be spoiling you guys. Heck I know both Karl and Nuto would have ditch me and your dad for you guys… and the fact that these people don’t have the chance to ever meet you two breaks my heart everyday.
I never want you to think that I do not love you. I love you two more than anything in this whole world. You guys are my everything and I just want to make you two proud and not ashamed to have me as your mom. I know your dad thinks of you two, and I know that he loves you too. We love you two so much and that is why we both did what we did. We both wanted the best for you two. We were young and scared and we both knew that there wasn’t a way for us to be able to give you the lives you deserved. So for me I am so sorry. I am so so so sorry. I wish that I could go back and change things so that I could have provided for you. I wish we could all be together and be happy together.
Never forget that I am always with you guys. No matter where my life takes me I am always holding you guys in my heart. I can never forget about you guys, you guys are always on my mind. I see you guys in every child I work with, every baby I see. You guys could never be replaced, you guys will never leave my heart. I know I say this a lot but I love you two so so so much. I never want you to forget that.