To my sweet pea

Author: My First Name
Baby Name: Sweet Pea
Birth Date: 1/08/2020
Abortion Date: 5/20/2019

Sweet pea,
I just want you to know how much I wanted you and love you first and foremost. You came to me so quick like a rapid fire, a beautiful warm fire but one that also came at the wrong place and the wrong time. This isn’t your fault, it was mine I wanted you so much I wished you to come so badly I didn’t see that it was the wrong time. Those 7 weeks I had with you as sick as I felt I loved every minute of it. I didn’t want to give you up baby, I just didn’t want you to have anything less than a whole family and a mama that was truly ready for you and neither of those things I could provide. I came up short sweet pea I’m so sorry, I will regret this for the rest of my life. I will miss you for the rest of my life . I wish we could have been together forever. I wish I could have held you in my arms. Seen your little face, how wonderful it would have been to look down and see part of me that I created living and breathing. This world isn’t good enough for you my sweet pea. My angel. I’m so sorry. I miss you inside of me making me sick. I would give anything to go back and be sick every second of every day for you. I’m so heartbroken I can’t get you back. I had to let you go. I will love and remember you for the rest of my life and I pray to God that the next time I’m blessed it’s you again that is coming to meet me. I don’t want anyone else but you. Send me a sign. Send me anything. I love you so much.
Love Mama